IT OVERTAKES ME

Chyna | 20 | (say hello)

Just made my hair a deeper red. The lighting isn’t very good, but at least you got a topless Tuesday out of it.

Saturday night was okay. My boyfriend’s band played last at some small bar and I was supposed to be the DD for my drunk father who humiliated us in public. The weekend turned really sour and I’m glad I came back to Grand Rapids at 6 AM to sleep while listening to gypsy music on the way home with Aladin.

I seriously don’t know what I would do without Aladin. He’s been seeing every ugly side of me/my life lately and holding me while I melt down or taking me out for a walk downtown if I’ve isolated myself all day - even it’s at 1 AM and he has to work at 8 AM. I’ve been losing my mind the past couple of days, as much as I hate to admit it. I have everything I’ve ever wanted or needed, and more than I could ever have imagined when I was 19, which wasn’t even that long ago. We’ve been arguing here and there in the isles of Walmart and such, but after 5 minutes of silent treatment we can’t even look at each other without smiling and just end up laughing at each other. 

I’ve realized how difficult I am to be around sometimes and him sticking by me means a great deal. I give him so much credit. He is such an amazing person.

I need to stop being married for awhile, though. I really need some girl time ASAP. Plus, I’m kind of a bad house wife - he’s been making great breakfasts and dinners. I just kind of take the tea kettle off of the burner when he forgets about it and it whistles too loud. 

No, but for real - I haven’t seen a lot of people in too long…get a hold of me?